A project a day, keeps the your sleep away.
Saturday, August 02, 2008 at 4:19 AM
Just when I thought that my workload was lessening, the rest of the projects got tougher! Worse of it all was I have a new and major one, my IISO model project. I've to built a MODEL! *whacks forehead* How am I to finish? Not to say that I haven't started any revision and my semester exams are coming in 3 weeks time. Gosh! I just need project chips.. super badly!Scan scan scan, how I wished my mom bought my 3-in-one printer earlier. Thank God she bought it before I started my WDS project because without it, I would be staying over at Alicia's house and still heavy lid-eyed scanning my books and bothering Aliii.
Time is like really short. Sam was sleeping really late and struggling to wake up on time. Same goes for me and I feel really indebted to Ali and Bernard for always waiting for me. Thank God they weren't people who would pick on you for that point, for me, to be late. :) Once again, laughing is not a problem although there are work to be done.
I was struggling, inside of me when my mom couldn't understand my point of view. I just felt so upset and not understood by her. How I wish my mom would just keep her mouth shut and just not shout at me to reprimand or tell me of things I know I should do but I just can't let go. Ahhhhh.. but I still love her ok. :) The best thing of it all was that, after I told her to not worry too much and just let me do my things.. ok, not really telling but more of talking with a louder voice and pitch, she stopped and just came in to say it with a really concerned tone(not like the one before)"ah bee, sleep already ok? very late." and she walked off to bed. This is really encouraging to me because I would feel so miserable and brood over my attitude towards my mom. Being agitated because of her lack of understanding gets over me.
Im sorry to friends whom I've not been able to contact regularly with. Really apologize that to you because I just simply have too much work. Just check out my entries, post and if you know me better, you would have realized that I talked lesser to you. No worries, my long "hey it's the holidays time!" is coming! Catching up :D
I've been choosing to ignore and to not bother. Feeling hurt is one thing, but I chose to do more meaningful things than to bother about it. I believe that God will meddle you and not me. Amazingly, I chose to endure all these than to voice it out once more. Maybe the next time it comes, it would be worse? I don't know, I can't say much. You love to talk so much when it's so late in the night and on sundays when you're 'NORMAL', you chose not to talk and be your that silent i-won't-talk-much-and-be-cool chap. Why can't you just change and stop all of these? You chose not to. You wanted all the problems you faced because if you chose to face your habits and stop them FOR GOD & YR FAMILY, you wouldn't be facing all these problems. I hate all of these and this will be the very last time Im mentioning it here again for the next time, I know it will be better, if not Im prepared to tell you, readers, something worse and more far-fetched.
Take care people. Forgive people and not endure all the hatred in you. Let it go and set it free. Love others and cherish them because you really won't know when they are leaving. It may sound so corny and like it's some obvious thing, but sometimes, you tend to forget and get angry over your friends or family, then all these will come in handy. Jiayou everybody! :) You're loved by me. Peace and God bless. Beddy, here I comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
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